Summertime ~ Depression?

Posted by Elle  |  at   10:57 PM No comments

It's summertime and normally you can find me reading in the evenings on my hammock.  Weeks ago the hammock stand we had for years, broke.
I started to search for new hammocks & stands but my husband told me to wait....they're too expensive.  One of the things I look forward to the most in the summer, I'm missing out on.  Before I know it the school schedule will be in full swing and the days will be shorter & cooler.  I guess my husband wants to wait to see if we can get a hammock on clearance near the end of summer....which is too late for me!

I haven't been reading as many books in comparison to other summers.
Currently I have about four reviews that I need to post, but just haven't had the time to sit down and write.  Also I just learned that the site I have been using for hosting my images on this blog is having issues, so I may need to deal with that issue soon.  Fun stuff.

 This has been the most stressful July in my entire life.  I don't think I can ever remember thinking of the month of July and stress in the same sentence!  There are many reasons for this, but the main ones are being a lending ear to someone with cancer and another friend who is leaving an abusive marriage, watching a 4 month old puppy for a week, some personal medical issues I won't go into here, bickering/friend issues with both my daughters and a few issues dealing with respect and time.   Summer has always been more of a relaxed time, never depressing or rushed, but yet here I am experiencing it.

Most of my life I have been the friend to go to who will just listen.
 I try not to give advice if it doesn't seem wanted or I don't know about the topic at hand.  I think I'm there for people because when I was growing up what I thought and felt didn't seem to matter.  I think this is why I was shy and just kept to myself after awhile.  It also gets difficult when the people you trust or love the most look at you differently and lose respect for you.  I've lost friends over the years who I trusted and confided in and then they majorly betrayed me.  It's difficult to bounce back from things like that and want to be able to let new people into your life again.  Guarded......that is probably the best word to describe me.  I definitely have downfalls with being too serious or hard on myself.  I was brought up as the oldest of three daughters, so I was made the example of.  It wasn't right or fair how strict my parents were with me, but I know that everything I deal with now is because of the high expectations place on me.  There's nothing I can do about it now, other than try to be the best person I can be.

Anyhow, summer is NOT supposed to be this serious, in-depth or depressing.
I've ALWAYS loved summer.  Not so much the miserably humid days or mosquitoes, but swimming, picnics, fireworks, friends, lots of sunshine, sitting on the patio, laying on the hammock, gardening, reading and a myriad of other summer memories from my childhood are what make me cherish summer days.

I'm just curious if anyone reading this has ever experienced a disappointing summer?  Can you remember the best summer you had and what made it the best?  I live in the Northeastern part of the United States and summer days are truly numbered.  Maybe that is why I cherish it so much because so much of the rest of the year is dreary.

What are you reading this summer?
Any recommendations?
Even though I don't have my hammock, I hope to get in a few books within the next month.  And I will definitely start working on writing the book reviews of the books I have read.

Thanks for reading & sorry if I depressed you!
I just wanetd to clear up with my readers why the book reviews
have been less and there haven't been many posts here.

Thank you for following my blog & stay tuned......

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Elle is a 45 year old HouseWife/SAHM/Kids-Taxi-Service from the Northeastern part of the United States. She enjoys reading, watching TV/Movies, blogging, social networking, crafting, recipe collecting, beaches and summer. She is not fond of laundry, cleaning bathrooms, washing floors or grocery shopping. Feel free to follow her on the social networks listed on the right hand side of the blog. Real life names have not been used in this blog.

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